~* Monday, June 05, 2006 *~

You are not a god
Created by human hands
You are not a god
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a god
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, thats just the way it is

You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne


You are God alone

You're the only God
Whose power none can contend
You're the only God
Whose name and praise will never end
You're the only God
Who's worthy of everything we can give
You are God
And thats just the way it is

Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
Thats what You are

~* Saturday, February 11, 2006 *~

Song details
Name We
Artist(s) Joy Williams
Album(s) Genesis (2005)

She's independent and beautiful
Wish I could be like her
She's got the girls and the boys
So wrapped around her finger
Rumor is she's some kind of dream
Nobody knows she cries herself to sleep

We are not that different from each other
We just want somebody to discover
Who we really are when we drop our guard
That love has gotta start with you and me
We

He's on the top of the social scene
He's stylish cool and clever
He's got a cool attitude that screams
He's got it all together

You'd think he's addicted to himself
But he wishes he could be someone else

We are not that different from each other
We just want somebody to discover
Who we really are when we drop our guard
That love has gotta start with you and me

We've gotta come togeher
Oh You know you don't ever have to be alone
You've got a hand to hold

Yeah Lalala Oh Oh Oh

We are not that different from each other
We just want somebody to discover
Who we really are when we drop our guard
That love has gotta start with you and me
We Oh Oh And We And We You and me We
We've gotta come together

The Fish Story

There was once a fish bowl which belonged to a fish-philic - that is, a fish lover. In it were many fishes, their numbers in terms of hundreds. It was a big fish bowl. It started off with 2 fishes - one male, one female. Then they multipied for many generations and grew in numbers. Over time, some of them were taken out and never came back.

Now, it came to pass that the fishes came to resemble 2 different sizes - fat meaty ones, and scrawny skinny ones. By logic, the skinny ones shoyld have been eliminated or removed because they served little purpose, in the sense that they were ugly to many and could not provide much nutrition if consumed. But the fish-philic loved rearing them all.

The scrawny fishes were few in number and they consumed less food. When young, all the fishes were the same. It was the food they ate that differentiated them. It was told from the elders that there was a better place outside the fish bowl - a place called the big blue ocean. To get there, the fish had to swim through a narrow pipe, and of course, not get stuck in the process.

Some scoffed at the idea and ate their fill and enjoyed the present life in the fish bowl. For those who believed, not all remembered to wait for their freedom out of the bowl. some got tired and impatient and began to follow the fat fishes, consuming their fish bowl food as they wished. Those that hung unto the hope that one day they will swim in the big blue sea grew to become the scrawny ugly fishes.

Life was tough for these fishes. They went hungry, they were shunned, but their hope kept them going. As time continued to pass, the number of fat fishes grew much larger in proportion. The stories of old were beginning to fade from their memories.

Then one day, the fish-philic scooped up a few fishes. The lucky few were 4 fat fishes and one skinny one. Of these, the separated the fat form the skinnny. As the skinny one swam around in a glass of water, he watched the fat fishes suffocate one by one as they were laid by the kitchen sink. The fish-philic prepared a pan on a flame on which he laid the fat fishes on.

Horrified at the fate of the fat fishes, the skinny fish wished that he could return to the bowl to warn the others. But he knew that it was of no use, because no oune would take heed. Then, the fish-philic lifted the glass and poured the skinny fish into a drain behind the kitchen. The fish found itself washed down long dark narrow pipes.

Finally, it saw a light and swam faster towards it. Then, as it burst into the light, it fell downwards into a great big blue body of water. The water was clean and fresh, and the beauty of the place was far beyond what the fish had imagined. The fish sighted a few old skinny fishes which had been taken out of the bowl before it. Then it knew that it was in the big blue ocean - just as the elders had said.

~* Saturday, January 07, 2006 *~

Beautiful Love - Afters

Genre/Lang. : Adult Contemporary

Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneath the crystal stars
Staring into space, what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

(chorus)
What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love, my beautiful love

Larger than the moon, my love for you
Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through
The secret of the world is written in the stars
I'm carrying your heart in mine

(chorus)

Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe all will see
Maybe our love will catch like fire
As it burns through me
(3x)

(chorus)

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful la la la la love
La la la la love
My beautiful
La la la la love
La la la la love
My beautiful love

~* Monday, December 19, 2005 *~

There's a hunger in this wilderness for Your revelation


To hear the words of life that strengthen me


Come and show what You've prepared for me


Speak your confirmation


Show me how I fit into Your plan


For when You call my name I can see again


Who You are and who I'm meant to be


And as you beckon me I am free to see


Who You are and who I'm sent to be


I am seeking true identity in the light of Your presence


I am longing to know how You see me


In the time that You have given me, release the strength to follow


And the grace to be who You say I am

~* Monday, December 12, 2005 *~

It's one day after camp. God's faithful hand still continues to hold me safe. Everyday is a miracle but today was a bigger miracle. It seems as though He really wants to drive back hard at me that He is here ALL the time. And I thank Him for that.

I was on the way to work in my Dad's car. We were driving along sunset way/clementi at a traffic junction. Then our lane across the junction had a really long line and my Dad stopped just in time after crossing the junction to avoid banging into the car in front. The car behind was in time too. Then came along a lorry and BANG there was a chain effect. And all 4 cars crashed. All I felt was this impact that made me thankful that my seatbelt was secured. It took me a moment before I realised what could have happened. God's hand was on me once again. He preserved everyone. Not a single person from the other vehicles were hurt. And thankfully it was the rush hr so the cars only had working ppl and no kids.

And this deliverance reminded me of a promise that God had given me. That he would preserve me till my time was up, when I had done His will. And I understood that He meant the people around me too. And it's probably no coincidence then too that the last 2 meanings of my name came to mind - protection and safety. What does God have in store for me? I know not all His plans. But I have full confidence that they are the best and that I will eagerly look forward to each new day.

~* Sunday, December 11, 2005 *~

Throughout the month of my holiday work attachment, I greatly looked forward to the coming of YM camp 2005. I had tasted the goodness of God in the previous year’s camp and I wanted more. I was hungry for God. The fire that was set aflame then had burned for a while, wavering, and perhaps was dying out as the time passed. I didn’t want the flame to be extinguished. I was afraid of falling back even though God promised us that no one could take His children away from the refuge of His wings. And even though I knew that I would miss part of camp due to the work attachment, I signed up anyway. Two, three years back, I always had some excuse not to go for camp. But this time even with something like an excuse, I made it a point to commit to come. I had to. Nothing could keep a child away from the Father.

I was saddened when I found out that the project I was working on during the attachment required me to be back at work in the afternoon on the Saturday during camp. But I gave it up all to God, remembering that He puts us in necessary places for a reason. Whatever purpose He had, I do not know. But I know that He said ‘let the little children come to me’. And indeed, He allowed me to be present to hear His word each time. And each time His word was preached by Pastor Benjamin Chew, I could feel the overwhelming presence of God come into the auditorium where we were gathered. People were crying out to God, falling on their knees, and receiving the Lord’s Spirit, coming clean before Him. And I was just so amazed. I was amazed at the power of God, and touched by His unending love and abundant mercies. I stood in the midst of the congregation, reminded of similar times like this when God came upon His people. I remember the feeling of wishing it would last forever, and hoping that the time would never come to an end. And to my joy, I am reminded that it will be for eternity, because that was just a foretaste of heaven.

I felt renewed and refreshed. On the last night, everyone prayed for revival, for God to move through His people, through the nations, to bring change. My YSG gathered to pray as well, and even though not all of us were present at camp, we knew that God had something prepared for us in the coming year. Many of us had been empowered and received the Spirit of boldness. For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but one of love, and His perfect love casts out all fears. Even tough it was late into the night, everyone worshipped the Lord by singing and dancing unto Him. We were on fire.

Then came the last day of camp. I was a little tired and sleepy. And I had training in the afternoon. But I’ve been tired and sleepy during trainings before, so it was no big deal. But surprise, surprise, when I got there, I found out that it was a race. One of my teammates just came back from a church camp too, so we requested to do an easy run. But our coach just told us to run moderately. So there I was, stretching, feeling the tiredness of my body, wondering how 4 hours of sleep could sustain me, and knowing that by my strength, I couldn’t do it. Both physically and mentally. Because I was not prepared for it either. And my training schedule was a little messed up over the past few weeks due to the work attachment. But I pushed aside all these thoughts, and focused on the Lord. I remembered the testimonies that had been shared during camp, I remembered my own experiences when God had given me strength, and I felt confident that He would see me through this.

And so I ran. And throughout, I just focused on God. Worship songs just ran through my head. I pushed aside whatever physical things I felt. Pain, or tiredness. I just knew I had to do it because God was with me. And I wanted it to be my worship to Him. I wanted to go through it all knowing that He is my strength, so that I may emerge with a greater passion and faith to testify for Him. And I am doing that know. YM Camp just reminded me of the Lord’s goodness. And back to ‘normal life’ His goodness was still there. More than ever before, I want every single living moment to be for Him. Every thing we do should be worship unto the Lord. Because He empowers us to run and finish the race of life.

~* Friday, November 25, 2005 *~

Tired. Bio o yesterday then did workout. Then now back to normal work week. Somehow I still don't feel quite like it's the hols. But I'm greatly looking forward to church camp :D Haha and my small grp's going sentosa tmr.. It's gonna be lots of fun!

And I'm going for a retreat later but I forgot to bring some stuff.. bleh. Guess I'll get my bro to bring it down on his way to sch later. Piggy.. he's still sleeping...


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